Pure Randomness (is that a word?)

Anyway so I know I said I wouldn’t be blogging or tweeting. But you know what I miss my friends that live in the computer!! LOL. I look for my twitter peeps and my online friends for support and I look to give them support as well. So here’s my vow. I will not be blogging or tweeting as much. I mean seriously, I can’t study 24 hrs a day. I need some time to breathe. So with that being said I can squeeze in a tweet here, and blog post there, but nothing excessive. So to all my friends …… hey!!!! (Like I really left for long…LOL).

Anyway I purchased the Roger CRAM and I’m digging it! I’ll tell you one thing. He keeps me entertained. I’ve already watched three hours and it went by so fast. Usually I’m counting down the minutes until the lecture is over or I’m pulling my eyelashes out one by one.

I know I’ve said this over and over again but I sooooo need to pass BEC and REG this window. I’m willing to put in the hours and I’ve already come to the realization that I will be sleep deprived. My biggest fear is that I will fail AGAIN!! Of course you have to speak positive thoughts but its hard when you don’t have atleast one passing grade to show for it. Yesterday on my way home I kept repeating to myself” I’m going to pass, I’m going to pass and I’m not failing this time around”. I know I should believe it, but I can’t sit here and say 100% that I do. Is this normal? Anyway I’ll keep saying it and one day I will believe it 150%. But until then I’ll be beating BEC and REG down with my study hours and repetitions.

Can anyone relate?

Morning Verse

Proverbs 22:3

A prudent person foresees danger and takes precautions.

  The simpleton goes blindly on and suffers the consequences.

What a way to start my day!

What to Do What to Do...Advice Needed

Ok my CPA fam (hugs to you all...lol). I was thinking about something this morning, I know a couple of days ago I said that I was going to focus on one exam at a time and that's what I plan to do. But then I read Miss Gina's blog http://missginacpa.blogspot.com and someone left a comment saying that's it better to take tests closer to together so that you retain information better (which is definitely true). I don't want my REG knowledge to slip away so do you think I should take it at the end of November? I'm thinking about taking BEC on 10/30 and then I can take REG on 11/30. And I also have two weeks off from work in November which means I can go to the library everday and really grind it out for 11/30.

Advice please!!!!!

Bye Bye Fun Weekend

My weekend was great! I haven't had this much fun in months. I've been to 4 states in 24 hrs. Clearing your head is a necessity! It's even better when you are around good friends and family.

What I should be doing......

What I should be doing is studying right now. I should be working a ton of MQ’s. I should be taking notes. I should be rewinding lectures and catching that last sentence. I should be nodding my head in agreement with the lecturer. I should also be basking in the glory of passing another exam. But right now I’m doing the exact opposite. I’m actually on my way driving down to Delaware with my boyfriend to a party. I’m not in CPA mode right now. What’s the point of studying if I’m not motivated. It really sucks when you fail by a few points. Like damn you couldn’t find some more points?? But oh well such is life. I don’t plan on being in CPA mode until Monday. On Monday I will be making my purchase for the Roger CPA review BEC cram. I’m also going to push FAR to 2011. I’m kicking myself in the face because I will be wasting money and letting my FAR NTS expire. For my own sanity I have to do this. I need to focus on ONE test at a time. My life will become BEC. I will wake up with formula’s and BEC questions on the brain. I just received my REG NTS a couple of days ago. Guess what? That’s going to be in 2011 too. I know 2011 in the CPA world is like your crazy uncle, (you just don’t’ want him around). But my crazy uncle will be there in 2011 so I’m just going to have to deal with it. I’m also thinking about switching programs totally and trying a live review. We’ll see how that goes. So that’s my plan. But right now…I’m going to chill with friends and drop it like its hot!!

If plan A fails then go to plan B.

How To Deal with Disappointments?

I guess I'm writing this post to everyone who's struggling with test. Because I'm not lying...I am!!

We can all learn from each other and I think its important to be open and honest. When I first discovered that I failed BEC by 6 stupid points I had to leave work early. I remember leaving work early, it was hot as hell that day and my eyes kept welling up with tears. I remember that day meeting my cousin for lunch. I really wanted to cancel our lunch date but I couldn't because he was already on his way. I just randomly checked my score and low and behold 69!!!

I called my Mom and the cracking in my voice said it all. I then told my cousin and he said don't worry you will pass just don't give up.

Then there's REG. I studied hard for that one too. But looking back I should have done more multiple choice questions in individual taxes. Well anyway that was a 63!!!

Enough rambling....

So how do I deal with disappointment?

I just think of the end result. How will feel when my initials are accompanied by CPA?
I will feel like the ish..( I know I know...I have to be humble...but I will feel like the ish...lol)

I was listening to some Kanye West song ( I don't remember the song because he's not my favorite person to talk about) and one verse said " Too whom much is given much is tested". If that ain't the TRUTH!!! Because I'm being tested right now. But you know what? I'll never forget this test. I constantly remind myself that this journey will lead me to the gold.

I also keep positive people around me. Its so much better to have positive reinforcements when you sometimes doubt yourself. I've never been a person who did bad in academics. I wasn't an A+ student but I made the Deans list frequently and I received scholarships. So this right here...is not like me. But I'll tell you one thing...it's humbling. Everyday I come home and I'm putting this test at the top of my list. I'm working MQ's on the train on the way to work. I'm reading on the way home and still doing MQ's. I make sure to take good notes and I make sure I know why I got a question wrong. I'm not a failure and I've never gave up on anything in my life and I won't start now!

So for everyone trying to make it through how do you keep going?

Headache

Ok so I just did a ton of multiple choice for FAR and I have headache. I once heard via twitter or somewhere that if your not miserable your not passing. Well guess what??...I'm miserable. But it will be worth it.

In other news....BEC was released today, and guess what I'm not checking it. After checking my REG score and failing by 12 pts that really affected my BEC studying so I'm not taking the risk. I have come to the conclusion that I won't be moving on to Audit until I get these three under my belt but I'm still not brave enough to check my score. Call me a chicken but it works....

Oh Man...

This test is no joke! As much as I hear from other people that its draining and its a lot of work I never really imagined that it would take this much out of me. I've been plugging away since 9:35am this morning and right now its 5:16pm. But I really feel good about my studying. As you know I'm using Yaeger but one thing I'm doing different now is that I'm definitely doing more than the minimum questions and I'm thoroughly righting out solutions. I'm putting the solutions in my own words because when it is time to review I will easily be able to go back and quickly remember. I'm honestly just pretty stressed about this test but I'm trying to not let it totally wear me out. I just want one passing grade and then I will feel even more confident. I will definitely say that the second time around is much better than the first. I'm picking up on so much more.

My biggest fear is that I will keep taking and taking and taking and won't pass. I'm determined not to make that a reality though.

I have come up with a strategy. My strategy is to not move on to Audit until I pass REG and BEC. I took BEC on 8/30 and I have yet to check my score and honestly I'm not checking it. I won't check it until after October 29th. That's when I take FAR.

After getting my test results back two days before BEC I can't run the risk of my score messing with my head. Of course I hope I passed and I feel like I did prepare for it but I just can't run that same risk again. If I get a score report in the mail I will know why. But if I don't then I will know that there's good news. Until then I'll just be plugging away and on my way to those pretty three letters.